The Part Of Me

"In this world full of Chaos,it is a beauty of the sight which pierces the cloudy veils.In a space full of darkness,there is always a crack of light luminescent.In the islands of hate,still the love of water surrounding it is forever unfathomable."
The Part Of Me
 It was darkest night of my life where i could listen the howl of loner wolves in my head;sat numbly wrapped in my furry blanket near a burning fire dizzy in its creaking sound & brightest flames.In a heavy breadth inhaled all calmness alternating the exhale of heaviness inside & drowned in the waves of my own mind.There was a track deep down inside me,took me to the caves of my heart & then let me show the sky of my mind;in that whole journey there was some kind of relative violence which was echoing to remind me of the happenings which happened to me,words which were said to me,what i heard,what they think & who I am,to whom I love & who loved me & loves me still,To whom I hate & who made me to hate & who hates me still,what i learned and who made me learn & still teaching me to learn.It was a kind of violence I faced for the first time.They said you are not good enough to handle your life & cannot stand the storms;The part of me said,still i will keep the roots rooted because my fears are powerless & cannot control my will to explore beyond the limits.They said you are struggling for so long aren't you tired;the part of me shouts but I learned from them & will learn forever doesn't matter how hard it will hit me to fight against.They said some people still hates you like hell;The part of me smiles and said let them hate me to give me the power of dominance over them.They said what will be your future;The part of me stares & said the future couldn't be decide but can be construct by the hardwork.They said you are useless now;The part of me was calm and said who authenticated it?I have my own purposes to live the span & those purposes will unfold by its own for me;It takes time but i will shine.They said the one you love doesn't loves you back & torture you every day;The part of me said Love is not about leaving but loving & transforming yourself for the one you love;i will keep loving that person & if he belongs to me will stay if not will still love him forever.They said you are cold,ugly & weird;the part of me said i was never borne to live a normal life but to set an example that we do exist.They said you are on wrong paths so run away;the part of me breadths and clarified i was never on wrong paths,those were meant for me to learn how to choose the correct ones.They said nobody ever stayed in your life,nobody understood you ever so why you are seeking the good still & why hoping to seek the perfectionist;The part of me laughed & cracked a joke,all those who left were busy in picking the stones so how could they know the pearls' worth?all those who never understood were those who couldn't handle the alpha woman so I am seeking the good because in millions of empty shells one must have the sight of pearls too in it & seeking the perfectionist because i know there is still someone who will love me with every beat of his heart.They said you are dreamy;The part of me smiled & looked at the sky if there were no dreams or hopes then how could a person live when the echos like you would never vanish.They said you are mean;the part of me giggled and in low voice ended that if i was mean then the fire of my ego was vicious enough to turn everything and everybody into ashes but the thing is some of us borne with  a perception of having heart that never hardens,a rage never tries & a touch that never hurts.The part of me won that night.I opened my eyes with a heart full of love and peace which washed out all the echos.I loved those still who never loved me and never cared about those who left.I was cold ,calm & still waiting.I was hopeful.
                              
   "The fire of the part of me was always vicious than a fire which I burnt outside."
                  

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